This is a dark chocolate Nugo Stronger protein bar that I picked up from Whole Foods last night and let me tell you, it is the hardest to chew bar I've ever tried. Probably the hardest to chew food I've ever eaten. 😂 Other than that, these are one of my top protein bars. I can pronounce all of the ingredients, the macros are on point, they are filling, are low in sugar, and satisfy my sweet tooth. 😋 I've tried this dark chocolate one and the caramel salted pretzel one and both are awesome. And they're pretty big and I'm all for big portions of food. 😂 Overall, I really like these.
Hamster sitting 😍😍😍 Taking care of the hamster from my best friend and her partner and finally she came out her house when I am around. Was a bit worried she could be dead as I didn't saw her and she barley moved 😅 Had so much to do, got a cup soup and some cheese as "dinner" I know its not much but I planned on nothing as I had late lunch and that cheese made me so scared 😱 So at least something. At least a little step in the right direction. Don't dare to eat too much in the evening, don't care to eat chocolate, don't dare to eat fatty things.. Although I only struggled since December (without knowing already since November) and ate some more in between since January and especially February I hit my personal rock bottom and it was never that hard as it is now. Will try to call the therapist tomorrow (srew you carnival) and NOT give in that restrictions/sport thoughts. They wont bring me anywhere. They will only make me miserable and at a certain point it will be visible for everyone and not just some who see me regularly (got asked by a friend last weekend if I lost and I panickly said no but at some point it will get obvious and suspicious) and I don't want that! I want to be stronger, I want to be healthy and happy and for the future I want to accept my body the way it is no matter how it looks (hardest part) 💪 #eatingdisorder#thistimeforreal#fightback#anorexiarecovery#foodisfuel#strongnotskinny#healthynothungry#fighter#realcovery#edrecovery#edfighter#recovery#countblessingsnotcalories#prorecovery#eatittobeatit#foodismedecine#foodislife#backtolifeagain#struggle#hardtime#anarecovery#nourishnotpunish#realrecovery
Morning snacking on an Apple and a big Pear!! ((Had my eyes on the new pack of prunes 😉 but there is a kitchen tutorial currently happening so sneaking through for some fruit was easiest.. but 2 pieces of course ☺)). Feeling a lot more comfortable going about my way in the kitchen 😊. Time to eat the amount I need 👌. // right now i've just got back from to the hostel after having now found myself a new morning loop and it is the EXACT same length as back home 😂. So perfect ❤. I try not to always go for a walk but i just feel so much better after a little walk after breakfast. Like the mornings i don't and then do end up in the afternoon, I instantly feel alive and happy again?! // Not sure where everyone in the hostel has gone though but it is succhhh a gorgeous day!! Going to lie in the sun till life appears again 😉😂
What do you do when you take a shower and see your body and feel awful and like you're the fattest thing on the planet? 🙈 You ignore all that and have a night snack. ☄ Reunited with my soya vanilla yoghurt after avoiding it for ages because 'I don't need that'. I may not need it, but I like it and enjoy it, so I deserve it. Also today hasn't been very calcium packed and I want good strong bones and chompers when I'm rolling about the nursing home in a few decades so I can defend my title as bingo queen until the end of my days. 🥛 Soya vanilla yoghurt, a banana, and some dried fruit and nut cubes (that I crumbled) as I bought them in Germany at New Year, opened them on Jan 5th, ate 1/5th of the serving, and returned them to my drawer. Like what even. Now I have two month old snacks to finish. But finish I will. 😅💪
2.26.17 | #lazybreakfast | It’s been a very emotionally taxing weekend. I got some really disappointing news on Friday and working through processing it has just completely drained me, so the Spring Break 2017 countdown is officially on in Jo’s world: 6 days. #thisislife365
Vanilla caramel chai tea and one of my favorite bars to keep me energized throughout this day! Honestly I was not hungry at all for this, but the thought of looking back tomorrow and feeling like I don't need a snack because I didn't have one today scares me SO much. I know getting into a cycle like that never leads to anything good.
2/26/17| Today for lunch I had a chicken sandwich with red bell peppers!😋 This is also a #recoverywin because guess what!? I added a slice of cheddar cheese 🧀👍🏻 Ed was telling me I have to exercise if I was gonna have the cheese but no I didn't listen to him! We don't need to ever need to feel like we have to "afford" food🙅 also I was hungry while we were headed home from the mall so I had a nut 🥜 butter filled cliff bar too!💪🏻 answer your hunger guys! I am doing my best not to freak out but I have faith it'll all be okay!🙏🏻😇 you can do this! 👊🏻
💜🍭Good evening sweeties🍭💜(26.02.2017)~ Happy Sunday😊 . 🌹Today's Q and A question is "Name one thing you wouldn't throw out". I wouldn't throw out my phone 📱❤️It helps my mental health for reasons I can't begin to explain🐬 . 🎁🛍🌸I'm currently letting my bestie know I want a cat 😂 She said can it be something that can be wrapped I made a point...🤣 I keep getting asked what I want for my birthday I'll be turning 22 . 🦋🌈The one thing I want more than anything no one can get me🌈🦋 It can't be purchased ⏰👩🏿 Well it technically can 😓 It's time with a certain person 👗👑 🌿Hope you've had a wonderful day🌿 🌖🍂The world is so much brighter from a happier perspective 🐳🐬 Sounds weird?! But unless something bad happens I'll continue to wake up positive 🦄 . 🐢🐛My joke with my friend a few weeks ago was how I'm the most 'Optimistic depressed' person ever 😀😍 I've got so much happiness And positivity and joy to spread 🎉🍟 🍔⭐️One day of the year Jellybean⭐️🍔 Silence your thoughts and enjoy life 🐞 Miss "I hate my birthdays because.... Jelly be quiet and eat pizza 🍕 Your stubbornness is stronger than your anxiety🐜🐅🌬💦 . 👸🏿🌆Breakfast ~ Gold syrup oats 👸🏿🌆Lunch~ Quinoa pot with peppers, yoghurt drink and toffee and popcorn chocolate bar (At work) 👸🏿🌆Dinner~ Fries 👸🏿🌆Snacks~ Two fruit scones 👸🏿🌆Dessert~ Popcorn and some crisps . 👣🎧I've been bopping around the house in happy spirits. I just want everyone to get along and celebrate with each other 🏆 🎨If Y'all can wrap up 'world peace' that's what I want for my birthday 😂 No more lying, hating, e.t.c 💥❄️ I'm filling my sea with love and beautiful things 🌊 It's good for my mental health 🌛🌙 🎁 🌎 Ooh and a purple Afro 🔥💜 . Ed Sheeran ~ Shape of your body Jax Jones~ Don't know me 🎶 💃🏿 . 🍰🎂So happy hope you're too. I'm really proud of my intake today. If you're not please no hate 📝🔐 I tried my best. Take care~ Much love Jelly xxx 📖🗝🔮
Night snack tonight is chocolate buttons and a chocolate frijj🍫 Can't believe I used to be scared of chocolate lmao, look at me now😂 I've gotten quite triggered this evening because some people have been telling me things that are going on in my old inpatient unit and it's just hard to hear about people being on eyesight and having incidents, it just brings back bad memories☹️
Really proud of myself for going to church today 💪For someone with social anxiety even something as simple as that can become a huge fear. I have a hard time going alone to gatherings and I had no idea if anyone I knew would be there today, but I knew that staying home was not what God wanted from me 💪 and hey look I didn't die! I'm still here and am now filled with a great message to reflect on for the week 😊 conquering anxiety is like working a muscle or playing a sport; the less active you are at it the less improvements you are going to see. . I know this to be true but that doesn't mean I always act on it #guiltyascharged 🙋 but step by step I plan to get more and more removed from my anxiety and embrace the uncomfortable 🙌 besides, nothing new or exciting ever came from staying in your comfort zone #projectcomeoutofturtleshell 🐢 😆. . Shown above is @eatbanza pesto pasta salad bowl for lunch on today's rest day 👌🍝🥗 #carbsonarestday#duh
Snacking on a daiya peach yogurt with half banana sliced, blueberries, trail mix, and some Maca powder sprinkled on top. My mood has been decreasing through out the day because I know school starts again tomorrow and I do not want to go back at all!!
🌼 Inhale the future Forget the past. Forget your mistakes and forgive yourself for them: you are a human being not a machine. Making mistakes is normal but going on is normal too. Go on and never give up. The past won't return, the future will come. Live your present.
crumpets with peanut butter and jam for tea🥜🍓(these are the ultimate m&s crumpets..which are my favourite crumps by far!) today has been a lil rough..I've felt really rubbish all day and just wanted to curl up and sleep today away😩 but I picked myself up and went to my nans with my family and managed a roast dinner even tho I wasn't really felling it!! tho just had a nice bath and I'm all cosied up in my pyjamas so going to eat this then head up too bed with netflix👏🏻
Breakfast up graded to 4 weetbix 😂 and a lot more milk and raspberry jam😱!!! ((Oh and a new lemon+ginger tea as they're currently out of green tea!) Basically got busted taking and editing this photo. Told the guy I was on fb but he wasn't really falling for it so now I feel embarrassed af and hella awkward around him 😩. Good chats around breakfast this morning though (while everyone slyly looks at your breakfast load 😅😯)... 8am mornings is basically guy central 101 ahh 😂. Going to get ready for my day and find a new morning walk loop for my new home here 😉. First uni lecture today, starting at 2pm!! 😱
Lunch!! I'm getting better and better at cooking 🍽 - - - Been having such a hectic day. Delilah has no chill so I've had to cancel my afternoon plans to spend the day with her👻🐶 Hopefully I can still make it to my yoga class at 630 tonight. ☯ - - - I've been keeping my circle small lately, only giving my attention to the people who mean most to me. I've tried on a few occasions to make plans with some girls from my school but they've fallen through both times. I wish I could connect to girls my age, to people that haven't been in the hospital and that have had decently normal lives. I wish there wasn't that fear on both ends.. I'm an easy person to talk to i just sometimes struggle with certain things. I wish I could connect to people easier, or for reasons beyond being sick.
. Night snack: skyr cottage cheese with grapes🍇🍇 . Im so insane exhausted and tired so having night snack is really a fight today. Just wanna go to sleep. I'm full, feeling sick and just wanna sleep, but no. Nightsnack is good so I'm gonna jump into this bowl now 🍵