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Baked apples and a rice roll for an afternoon snack. ๐ŸŽ๐Ÿ˜‹ Hope you guys are enjoying your Sunday afternoon! ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•
Baked apples and a rice roll for an afternoon snack. ๐ŸŽ๐Ÿ˜‹ Hope you guys are enjoying your Sunday afternoon! ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•
This is a dark chocolate Nugo Stronger protein bar that I picked up from Whole Foods last night and let me tell you, it is the hardest to chew bar I've ever tried. Probably the hardest to chew food I've ever eaten. ๐Ÿ˜‚ Other than that, these are one of my top protein bars. I can pronounce all of the ingredients, the macros are on point, they are filling, are low in sugar, and satisfy my sweet tooth. ๐Ÿ˜‹ I've tried this dark chocolate one and the caramel salted pretzel one and both are awesome. And they're pretty big and I'm all for big portions of food. ๐Ÿ˜‚ Overall, I really like these.
This is a dark chocolate Nugo Stronger protein bar that I picked up from Whole Foods last night and let me tell you, it is the hardest to chew bar I've ever tried. Probably the hardest to chew food I've ever eaten. ๐Ÿ˜‚ Other than that, these are one of my top protein bars. I can pronounce all of the ingredients, the macros are on point, they are filling, are low in sugar, and satisfy my sweet tooth. ๐Ÿ˜‹ I've tried this dark chocolate one and the caramel salted pretzel one and both are awesome. And they're pretty big and I'm all for big portions of food. ๐Ÿ˜‚ Overall, I really like these.
afternoon hikes w bae ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜>>> and my bae I mean this @kindsnacks granola bar because life is much more dull without peanut butter ๐Ÿฅœ๐Ÿฅœ
afternoon hikes w bae ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜>>> and my bae I mean this @kindsnacks granola bar because life is much more dull without peanut butter ๐Ÿฅœ๐Ÿฅœ
Going to hard studying with this view from my desk โค
Going to hard studying with this view from my desk โค
sorry I've been away so long my loves, I've been struggling a bit and I don't want to put bad vibes out into the community for no reason. much love to you all โค๏ธโค๏ธ
sorry I've been away so long my loves, I've been struggling a bit and I don't want to put bad vibes out into the community for no reason. much love to you all โค๏ธโค๏ธ
Hamster sitting ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜ Taking care of the hamster from my best friend and her partner and finally she came out her house when I am around. Was a bit worried she could be dead as I didn't saw her and she barley moved ๐Ÿ˜… Had so much to do, got a cup soup and some cheese as "dinner" I know its not much but I planned on nothing as I had late lunch and that cheese made me so scared ๐Ÿ˜ฑ So at least something. At least a little step in the right direction. Don't dare to eat too much in the evening, don't care to eat chocolate, don't dare to eat fatty things.. Although I only struggled since December (without knowing already since November) and ate some more in between since January and especially February I hit my personal rock bottom and it was never that hard as it is now. Will try to call the therapist tomorrow (srew you carnival) and NOT give in that restrictions/sport thoughts. They wont bring me anywhere. They will only make me miserable and at a certain point it will be visible for everyone and not just some who see me regularly (got asked by a friend last weekend if I lost and I panickly said no but at some point it will get obvious and suspicious) and I don't want that! I want to be stronger, I want to be healthy and happy and for the future I want to accept my body the way it is no matter how it looks (hardest part) ๐Ÿ’ช #eatingdisorder #thistimeforreal #fightback #anorexiarecovery #foodisfuel #strongnotskinny #healthynothungry #fighter #realcovery #edrecovery #edfighter #recovery #countblessingsnotcalories #prorecovery #eatittobeatit #foodismedecine #foodislife #backtolifeagain #struggle #hardtime #anarecovery #nourishnotpunish #realrecovery
Hamster sitting ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜ Taking care of the hamster from my best friend and her partner and finally she came out her house when I am around. Was a bit worried she could be dead as I didn't saw her and she barley moved ๐Ÿ˜… Had so much to do, got a cup soup and some cheese as "dinner" I know its not much but I planned on nothing as I had late lunch and that cheese made me so scared ๐Ÿ˜ฑ So at least something. At least a little step in the right direction. Don't dare to eat too much in the evening, don't care to eat chocolate, don't dare to eat fatty things.. Although I only struggled since December (without knowing already since November) and ate some more in between since January and especially February I hit my personal rock bottom and it was never that hard as it is now. Will try to call the therapist tomorrow (srew you carnival) and NOT give in that restrictions/sport thoughts. They wont bring me anywhere. They will only make me miserable and at a certain point it will be visible for everyone and not just some who see me regularly (got asked by a friend last weekend if I lost and I panickly said no but at some point it will get obvious and suspicious) and I don't want that! I want to be stronger, I want to be healthy and happy and for the future I want to accept my body the way it is no matter how it looks (hardest part) ๐Ÿ’ช #eatingdisorder  #thistimeforreal  #fightback  #anorexiarecovery  #foodisfuel  #strongnotskinny  #healthynothungry  #fighter  #realcovery  #edrecovery  #edfighter  #recovery  #countblessingsnotcalories  #prorecovery  #eatittobeatit  #foodismedecine  #foodislife  #backtolifeagain  #struggle  #hardtime  #anarecovery  #nourishnotpunish  #realrecovery 
Im finally back from London, and I've had a very challenging but very enjoyable time. This guy and I seem to be really hitting it off and even with spending a weekend together we never had any pregnant pauses in conversation. We did a lot of walking and meandering. It also a lot of eating out with a number of glasses and wine ๐Ÿท Dinner back home after brunch out today was a large crumpet; half with butter and half with black currant conserve and then a large plate of fruit as I had hardly any yesterday and it was all I've been craving ๐Ÿ™ˆ #edrecovery #edfamily #edfighter  #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #recovery #realrecovery #balancednotclean #strongnotskinny #eatittobeatit #vegetarian #fooddiary #challenge #dinner #crumpet #jam #conserve #butter
Im finally back from London, and I've had a very challenging but very enjoyable time. This guy and I seem to be really hitting it off and even with spending a weekend together we never had any pregnant pauses in conversation. We did a lot of walking and meandering. It also a lot of eating out with a number of glasses and wine ๐Ÿท Dinner back home after brunch out today was a large crumpet; half with butter and half with black currant conserve and then a large plate of fruit as I had hardly any yesterday and it was all I've been craving ๐Ÿ™ˆ #edrecovery  #edfamily  #edfighter  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anarecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #realrecovery  #balancednotclean  #strongnotskinny  #eatittobeatit  #vegetarian  #fooddiary  #challenge  #dinner  #crumpet  #jam  #conserve  #butter 
Morning snacking on an Apple and a big Pear!! ((Had my eyes on the new pack of prunes ๐Ÿ˜‰ but there is a kitchen tutorial currently happening so sneaking through for some fruit was easiest.. but 2 pieces of course โ˜บ)). Feeling a lot more comfortable going about my way in the kitchen ๐Ÿ˜Š. Time to eat the amount I need ๐Ÿ‘Œ. // right now i've just got back from to the hostel after having now found myself a new morning loop and it is the EXACT same length as back home ๐Ÿ˜‚. So perfect โค. I try not to always go for a walk but i just feel so much better after a little walk after breakfast. Like the mornings i don't and then do end up in the afternoon, I instantly feel alive and happy again?! // Not sure where everyone in the hostel has gone though but it is succhhh a gorgeous day!! Going to lie in the sun till life appears again ๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜‚
Morning snacking on an Apple and a big Pear!! ((Had my eyes on the new pack of prunes ๐Ÿ˜‰ but there is a kitchen tutorial currently happening so sneaking through for some fruit was easiest.. but 2 pieces of course โ˜บ)). Feeling a lot more comfortable going about my way in the kitchen ๐Ÿ˜Š. Time to eat the amount I need ๐Ÿ‘Œ. // right now i've just got back from to the hostel after having now found myself a new morning loop and it is the EXACT same length as back home ๐Ÿ˜‚. So perfect โค. I try not to always go for a walk but i just feel so much better after a little walk after breakfast. Like the mornings i don't and then do end up in the afternoon, I instantly feel alive and happy again?! // Not sure where everyone in the hostel has gone though but it is succhhh a gorgeous day!! Going to lie in the sun till life appears again ๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜‚
Anyone can recover! Don't ever think you don't deserve recovery! You are worth so much more than this illness let's you think!! Beat this S*** now before it takes you further and further away!! Its possible! You just have to fight โคโคโค #edwarrior #ed #realrecovery #self #mindset #health #prorecovery #weightrestoring #minniemaudrecovery #minniemaud #MM #edfam #beatit #eatittobeatit #myrecoverystory #weightrestoring #weightgainrecoverytrain #weightgainjourney #anarecovery #anorexianervosa #edfam #3000cal #anawho #breakfast #strength #loveyourselves #nevergiveup #thefightisworthit
Anyone can recover! Don't ever think you don't deserve recovery! You are worth so much more than this illness let's you think!! Beat this S*** now before it takes you further and further away!! Its possible! You just have to fight โคโคโค #edwarrior  #ed  #realrecovery  #self  #mindset  #health  #prorecovery  #weightrestoring  #minniemaudrecovery  #minniemaud  #MM  #edfam  #beatit  #eatittobeatit  #myrecoverystory  #weightrestoring  #weightgainrecoverytrain  #weightgainjourney  #anarecovery  #anorexianervosa  #edfam  #3000cal  #anawho  #breakfast  #strength  #loveyourselves  #nevergiveup  #thefightisworthit 
What do you do when you take a shower and see your body and feel awful and like you're the fattest thing on the planet? ๐Ÿ™ˆ You ignore all that and have a night snack. โ˜„ Reunited with my soya vanilla yoghurt after avoiding it for ages because 'I don't need that'. I may not need it, but I like it and enjoy it, so I deserve it. Also today hasn't been very calcium packed and I want good strong bones and chompers when I'm rolling about the nursing home in a few decades so I can defend my title as bingo queen until the end of my days. ๐Ÿฅ› Soya vanilla yoghurt, a banana, and some dried fruit and nut cubes (that I crumbled) as I bought them in Germany at New Year, opened them on Jan 5th, ate 1/5th of the serving, and returned them to my drawer. Like what even. Now I have two month old snacks to finish. But finish I will. ๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ’ช
What do you do when you take a shower and see your body and feel awful and like you're the fattest thing on the planet? ๐Ÿ™ˆ You ignore all that and have a night snack. โ˜„ Reunited with my soya vanilla yoghurt after avoiding it for ages because 'I don't need that'. I may not need it, but I like it and enjoy it, so I deserve it. Also today hasn't been very calcium packed and I want good strong bones and chompers when I'm rolling about the nursing home in a few decades so I can defend my title as bingo queen until the end of my days. ๐Ÿฅ› Soya vanilla yoghurt, a banana, and some dried fruit and nut cubes (that I crumbled) as I bought them in Germany at New Year, opened them on Jan 5th, ate 1/5th of the serving, and returned them to my drawer. Like what even. Now I have two month old snacks to finish. But finish I will. ๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ’ช
Prepped my lunches, dinners, and a few quick snacks for my work week. โ˜†
Prepped my lunches, dinners, and a few quick snacks for my work week. โ˜†
Celery stem rose โ™ก
Celery stem rose โ™ก
trying this choco rice milk I picked up in holland and barrett because for 20p I couldn't resist๐Ÿ‘… along with a coco orange nakd bar because I'm all about that chocolate tonight๐Ÿซ
trying this choco rice milk I picked up in holland and barrett because for 20p I couldn't resist๐Ÿ‘… along with a coco orange nakd bar because I'm all about that chocolate tonight๐Ÿซ
It doesn't matter what you ate yesterday or what you are going to eat later -- it matters that you take care of yourself. Random snack of some homemade bread and a cherry amaretto soy latte #prorecovery #anawho #recovering #recoverywin #fearfood #edfighter #edfamily #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #wildfriendsfun #realrecovery #foodisfuel #anasoldier #beatana #vegan #healthy #selflove #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatclean #plantbased #tasteslikebetter #selfcare  #progressnotperfection #eatittobeatit #nourishnotpunish #edrecovery #snack #fit #health #veganism
It doesn't matter what you ate yesterday or what you are going to eat later -- it matters that you take care of yourself. Random snack of some homemade bread and a cherry amaretto soy latte #prorecovery  #anawho  #recovering  #recoverywin  #fearfood  #edfighter  #edfamily  #anarecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #wildfriendsfun  #realrecovery  #foodisfuel  #anasoldier  #beatana  #vegan  #healthy  #selflove  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatclean  #plantbased  #tasteslikebetter  #selfcare  #progressnotperfection  #eatittobeatit  #nourishnotpunish  #edrecovery  #snack  #fit  #health  #veganism 
2.26.17 | #lazybreakfast | Itโ€™s been a very emotionally taxing weekend. I got some really disappointing news on Friday and working through processing it has just completely drained me, so the Spring Break 2017 countdown is officially on in Joโ€™s world: 6 days. #thisislife365
2.26.17 | #lazybreakfast  | Itโ€™s been a very emotionally taxing weekend. I got some really disappointing news on Friday and working through processing it has just completely drained me, so the Spring Break 2017 countdown is officially on in Joโ€™s world: 6 days. #thisislife365 
Vanilla caramel chai tea and one of my favorite bars to keep me energized throughout this day! Honestly I was not hungry at all for this, but the thought of looking back tomorrow and feeling like I don't need a snack because I didn't have one today scares me SO much. I know getting into a cycle like that never leads to anything good.
Vanilla caramel chai tea and one of my favorite bars to keep me energized throughout this day! Honestly I was not hungry at all for this, but the thought of looking back tomorrow and feeling like I don't need a snack because I didn't have one today scares me SO much. I know getting into a cycle like that never leads to anything good.
With recovery you can have your cake (and ice cream) and eat it too ๐Ÿ˜‰ (bowl 1/2 lol) long story short, I wanted some cake and ice cream so I got myself some cake and ice cream. Yes it is the middle of the day, no I did not feel any guilt. Recovery is so worth it, I'm glad to finally have my life back.  #ed #edrecovered #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #ednos #anorexiarecovery #recovery #neda #recoveryisworthit #prorecovery #foodisfuel #eatittobeatit #strongnotskinny #balance #moderationnotdeprivation #cake #icecream
With recovery you can have your cake (and ice cream) and eat it too ๐Ÿ˜‰ (bowl 1/2 lol) long story short, I wanted some cake and ice cream so I got myself some cake and ice cream. Yes it is the middle of the day, no I did not feel any guilt. Recovery is so worth it, I'm glad to finally have my life back. #ed  #edrecovered  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #ednos  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #neda  #recoveryisworthit  #prorecovery  #foodisfuel  #eatittobeatit  #strongnotskinny  #balance  #moderationnotdeprivation  #cake  #icecream 
#nightsnack to end a fabtabulous day- #percypig shortbread biscuits with fondant, a chocolate cookies and cream egg and a tassimo Cadbury hot chocolate. I MANAGED TO REACH MY NEW TARGET! Still need to increase but slowly and surely๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿผ #ns #flourish #nourish #eatittobeatit #edwarrior #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #ana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anarecovery #prorecovery #dessert #pudding #foodporn #food #calories #hotchocolate #biscuits #fuckana #iwillwin #relapse #gain ๐Ÿท๐Ÿฝ
#nightsnack  to end a fabtabulous day- #percypig  shortbread biscuits with fondant, a chocolate cookies and cream egg and a tassimo Cadbury hot chocolate. I MANAGED TO REACH MY NEW TARGET! Still need to increase but slowly and surely๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿผ #ns  #flourish  #nourish  #eatittobeatit  #edwarrior  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #ana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anarecovery  #prorecovery  #dessert  #pudding  #foodporn  #food  #calories  #hotchocolate  #biscuits  #fuckana  #iwillwin  #relapse  #gain  ๐Ÿท๐Ÿฝ
Another day another selfie ๐Ÿคณ  Super tired but going to find some motivation to get my research and statistics lecture done so I can tick off all last weeks work โœ”๏ธ I think we have a outing for cake and coffee this morning eek ๐Ÿฐโ˜•๏ธ Wish me luck โ˜˜๏ธ Whats everyone up to today ?  #inpatient #hospital #anxiety #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #edfamily #edrecovery #adultswithed #eatingdisorderrecovery #recovery #recoveringaussies #realrecovery #therapy #healthy #healthynotskinny #eatittobeatit #fearfoodmonday #fearfoodchallenge #smile #endthestigma #mentalillness #mentalhealth #happy #ocd #coffee #cake #cakechallenge #study #uni #hypersomnia
Another day another selfie ๐Ÿคณ Super tired but going to find some motivation to get my research and statistics lecture done so I can tick off all last weeks work โœ”๏ธ I think we have a outing for cake and coffee this morning eek ๐Ÿฐโ˜•๏ธ Wish me luck โ˜˜๏ธ Whats everyone up to today ? #inpatient  #hospital  #anxiety  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #edfamily  #edrecovery  #adultswithed  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #recovery  #recoveringaussies  #realrecovery  #therapy  #healthy  #healthynotskinny  #eatittobeatit  #fearfoodmonday  #fearfoodchallenge  #smile  #endthestigma  #mentalillness  #mentalhealth  #happy  #ocd  #coffee  #cake  #cakechallenge  #study  #uni  #hypersomnia 
Anorexia told me not to have this dessert, so I'm having it โœจโค๐Ÿค—
Anorexia told me not to have this dessert, so I'm having it โœจโค๐Ÿค—
I've come a long way in a short amount of time. I don't plan on stopping here either.  I think about the time that was wasted only with a need to fulfil it and live now. Some days are tough and other days are filled with food and happiness. More often than not it's a good day now.  I can't remember the last time I worked out. I can't remember the last time I intentionally starved myself for a prolonged amount of time. I can't remember the need to count calories. I can barely remember the last time I purged (sometime last June). I can't remember the last time I said no to going out for food. I don't let my disorder control me.  Despite the occasional down day, I am fucking brilliant Ana. I'm slaying harder than ever.  #realrecovery  #recovery #recovering #edfamily #edwarrior #edfighter #edfam #edcommunity #recoveryisworthit #recoverywin #eatittobeatit #ana #anarecovery #edrecovery #anorexianervosa #prorecovery #recoveryispossible #fuckana #fuckanorexia #depressed #fitfam #mentalhealth #ukfitfam #strongnotskinny #anawho #anawarrior #anafighter #anarecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery
I've come a long way in a short amount of time. I don't plan on stopping here either. I think about the time that was wasted only with a need to fulfil it and live now. Some days are tough and other days are filled with food and happiness. More often than not it's a good day now. I can't remember the last time I worked out. I can't remember the last time I intentionally starved myself for a prolonged amount of time. I can't remember the need to count calories. I can barely remember the last time I purged (sometime last June). I can't remember the last time I said no to going out for food. I don't let my disorder control me. Despite the occasional down day, I am fucking brilliant Ana. I'm slaying harder than ever. #realrecovery  #recovery  #recovering  #edfamily  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #edfam  #edcommunity  #recoveryisworthit  #recoverywin  #eatittobeatit  #ana  #anarecovery  #edrecovery  #anorexianervosa  #prorecovery  #recoveryispossible  #fuckana  #fuckanorexia  #depressed  #fitfam  #mentalhealth  #ukfitfam  #strongnotskinny  #anawho  #anawarrior  #anafighter  #anarecovery  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery 
๐Ÿ“†ะ— ะฟะพั‡ะฐั‚ะบะพะผ ะ’ะตะปะธะบะพะณะพ ะŸะพัั‚ัƒ! . Photo: @annlenko . #eat๐Ÿด #eat #eatitup #eatitall #breakfast #foodpics #eatittobeatit #eating #food #delisious #delusional #delusionalthomas #delusionalparasitosis  #delusionalbitches  #delusionalparasitosis  #delisious #delisi #health #healthy #February2017#February_2017
So I've decided to enter the #lanasbasketgiveaway and I have tagged my beautiful friend @xrecoveringprincess because she needs a little pick me up right now and I want her to remember that TOGETHER WE CAN. We CAN get through this. We CAN have a full and happy life. And most importantly, we CAN binge-watch Netflix without feeling guilty! ๐Ÿ˜‰ Big hugs girly ๐Ÿค— โ€ข Affected by an eating disorder? You're not alone https://www.b-eat.co.uk/latest #EDAW2017 โ€ข โ€ข โ€ข โ€ข #ed #edrecovery #edfree #edwarrior #edfighter #edfam #edfamily #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatittobeatit #foodisfuel #balancednotclean #healthy #bulimiarecovery #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anawho #anawarrior #prorecovery #positive #bodypositive #recovery #recoverywin #recoverywarrior #recoveryisworthit #recovering #mentalhealth #findinghappiness #intuitiveeating
So I've decided to enter the #lanasbasketgiveaway  and I have tagged my beautiful friend @xrecoveringprincess because she needs a little pick me up right now and I want her to remember that TOGETHER WE CAN. We CAN get through this. We CAN have a full and happy life. And most importantly, we CAN binge-watch Netflix without feeling guilty! ๐Ÿ˜‰ Big hugs girly ๐Ÿค— โ€ข Affected by an eating disorder? You're not alone https://www.b-eat.co.uk/latest #EDAW2017  โ€ข โ€ข โ€ข โ€ข #ed  #edrecovery  #edfree  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #edfam  #edfamily  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #foodisfuel  #balancednotclean  #healthy  #bulimiarecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexia  #anawho  #anawarrior  #prorecovery  #positive  #bodypositive  #recovery  #recoverywin  #recoverywarrior  #recoveryisworthit  #recovering  #mentalhealth  #findinghappiness  #intuitiveeating 
2/26/17| Today for lunch I had a chicken sandwich with red bell peppers!๐Ÿ˜‹ This is also a #recoverywin because guess what!? I added a slice of cheddar cheese ๐Ÿง€๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿป Ed was telling me I have to exercise if I was gonna have the cheese but no I didn't listen to him! We don't need to ever need to feel like we have to "afford" food๐Ÿ™… also I was hungry while we were headed home from the mall so I had a nut ๐Ÿฅœ butter filled cliff bar too!๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป answer your hunger guys! I am doing my best not to freak out but I have faith it'll all be okay!๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป๐Ÿ˜‡ you can do this! ๐Ÿ‘Š๐Ÿป
2/26/17| Today for lunch I had a chicken sandwich with red bell peppers!๐Ÿ˜‹ This is also a #recoverywin  because guess what!? I added a slice of cheddar cheese ๐Ÿง€๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿป Ed was telling me I have to exercise if I was gonna have the cheese but no I didn't listen to him! We don't need to ever need to feel like we have to "afford" food๐Ÿ™… also I was hungry while we were headed home from the mall so I had a nut ๐Ÿฅœ butter filled cliff bar too!๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป answer your hunger guys! I am doing my best not to freak out but I have faith it'll all be okay!๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป๐Ÿ˜‡ you can do this! ๐Ÿ‘Š๐Ÿป
Whatever you're going through, keep going. You are so much stronger than you know and worth so much more than you realise. It is not always easy, doing anything comes with its own struggles and stumbles. Don't forget to put yourself first. It isn't selfish. Trust me. You are magical and amazing and whatever it is that you are going through, you can get through it! ๐Ÿ’› . . . . . . #nourishnotpunish #realcovery  #recoveringed #recoveringaussies #healthylifestyle #flexitarian #edwarrior #fitfam #eatittobeatit #vegan #eatingdisorderrecovery #healthyrecovery #balancednotclean  #recovered #healthynotskinny  #eatittobeatit #prorecovery #selflove #foodie #strongnotskinny #fightingforfit #postivevibes #inspo #recoveryaccount  #foodphotography #recoveryisworthit
Whatever you're going through, keep going. You are so much stronger than you know and worth so much more than you realise. It is not always easy, doing anything comes with its own struggles and stumbles. Don't forget to put yourself first. It isn't selfish. Trust me. You are magical and amazing and whatever it is that you are going through, you can get through it! ๐Ÿ’› . . . . . . #nourishnotpunish  #realcovery  #recoveringed  #recoveringaussies  #healthylifestyle  #flexitarian  #edwarrior  #fitfam  #eatittobeatit  #vegan  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #healthyrecovery  #balancednotclean  #recovered  #healthynotskinny  #eatittobeatit  #prorecovery  #selflove  #foodie  #strongnotskinny  #fightingforfit  #postivevibes  #inspo  #recoveryaccount  #foodphotography  #recoveryisworthit 
๐Ÿ’œ๐ŸญGood evening sweeties๐Ÿญ๐Ÿ’œ(26.02.2017)~ Happy Sunday๐Ÿ˜Š . ๐ŸŒนToday's Q and A question is "Name one thing you wouldn't throw out". I wouldn't throw out my phone ๐Ÿ“ฑโค๏ธIt helps my mental health for reasons I can't begin to explain๐Ÿฌ . ๐ŸŽ๐Ÿ›๐ŸŒธI'm currently letting my bestie know I want a cat ๐Ÿ˜‚ She said can it be something that can be wrapped I made a point...๐Ÿคฃ I keep getting asked what I want for my birthday  I'll be turning 22 . ๐Ÿฆ‹๐ŸŒˆThe one thing I want more than anything no one can get me๐ŸŒˆ๐Ÿฆ‹ It can't be purchased โฐ๐Ÿ‘ฉ๐Ÿฟ Well it technically can ๐Ÿ˜“ It's time with a certain person ๐Ÿ‘—๐Ÿ‘‘ ๐ŸŒฟHope you've had a wonderful day๐ŸŒฟ ๐ŸŒ–๐Ÿ‚The world is so much brighter from a happier perspective ๐Ÿณ๐Ÿฌ Sounds weird?! But unless something bad happens I'll continue to wake up positive ๐Ÿฆ„ . ๐Ÿข๐Ÿ›My joke with my friend a few weeks ago was how I'm the most 'Optimistic depressed' person ever ๐Ÿ˜€๐Ÿ˜ I've got so much happiness  And positivity and joy to spread ๐ŸŽ‰๐ŸŸ ๐Ÿ”โญ๏ธOne day of the year Jellybeanโญ๏ธ๐Ÿ” Silence your thoughts and enjoy life ๐Ÿž Miss "I hate my birthdays because.... Jelly be quiet and eat pizza ๐Ÿ•  Your stubbornness is stronger than your anxiety๐Ÿœ๐Ÿ…๐ŸŒฌ๐Ÿ’ฆ . ๐Ÿ‘ธ๐Ÿฟ๐ŸŒ†Breakfast ~ Gold syrup oats ๐Ÿ‘ธ๐Ÿฟ๐ŸŒ†Lunch~ Quinoa pot with peppers, yoghurt drink and toffee and popcorn chocolate bar (At work) ๐Ÿ‘ธ๐Ÿฟ๐ŸŒ†Dinner~ Fries ๐Ÿ‘ธ๐Ÿฟ๐ŸŒ†Snacks~ Two fruit scones ๐Ÿ‘ธ๐Ÿฟ๐ŸŒ†Dessert~ Popcorn and some crisps . ๐Ÿ‘ฃ๐ŸŽงI've been bopping around the house in happy spirits. I just want everyone to get along and celebrate with each other ๐Ÿ† ๐ŸŽจIf Y'all can wrap up 'world peace' that's what I want for my birthday ๐Ÿ˜‚ No more lying, hating, e.t.c ๐Ÿ’ฅโ„๏ธ I'm filling my sea with love and beautiful things ๐ŸŒŠ  It's good for my mental health ๐ŸŒ›๐ŸŒ™ ๐ŸŽ ๐ŸŒŽ Ooh and a purple Afro ๐Ÿ”ฅ๐Ÿ’œ . Ed Sheeran ~ Shape of your body Jax Jones~ Don't know me ๐ŸŽถ ๐Ÿ’ƒ๐Ÿฟ . ๐Ÿฐ๐ŸŽ‚So happy hope you're too. I'm really proud of my intake today. If you're not please no hate ๐Ÿ“๐Ÿ” I tried my best. Take care~ Much love Jelly xxx ๐Ÿ“–๐Ÿ—๐Ÿ”ฎ
๐Ÿ’œ๐ŸญGood evening sweeties๐Ÿญ๐Ÿ’œ(26.02.2017)~ Happy Sunday๐Ÿ˜Š . ๐ŸŒนToday's Q and A question is "Name one thing you wouldn't throw out". I wouldn't throw out my phone ๐Ÿ“ฑโค๏ธIt helps my mental health for reasons I can't begin to explain๐Ÿฌ . ๐ŸŽ๐Ÿ›๐ŸŒธI'm currently letting my bestie know I want a cat ๐Ÿ˜‚ She said can it be something that can be wrapped I made a point...๐Ÿคฃ I keep getting asked what I want for my birthday I'll be turning 22 . ๐Ÿฆ‹๐ŸŒˆThe one thing I want more than anything no one can get me๐ŸŒˆ๐Ÿฆ‹ It can't be purchased โฐ๐Ÿ‘ฉ๐Ÿฟ Well it technically can ๐Ÿ˜“ It's time with a certain person ๐Ÿ‘—๐Ÿ‘‘ ๐ŸŒฟHope you've had a wonderful day๐ŸŒฟ ๐ŸŒ–๐Ÿ‚The world is so much brighter from a happier perspective ๐Ÿณ๐Ÿฌ Sounds weird?! But unless something bad happens I'll continue to wake up positive ๐Ÿฆ„ . ๐Ÿข๐Ÿ›My joke with my friend a few weeks ago was how I'm the most 'Optimistic depressed' person ever ๐Ÿ˜€๐Ÿ˜ I've got so much happiness And positivity and joy to spread ๐ŸŽ‰๐ŸŸ ๐Ÿ”โญ๏ธOne day of the year Jellybeanโญ๏ธ๐Ÿ” Silence your thoughts and enjoy life ๐Ÿž Miss "I hate my birthdays because.... Jelly be quiet and eat pizza ๐Ÿ• Your stubbornness is stronger than your anxiety๐Ÿœ๐Ÿ…๐ŸŒฌ๐Ÿ’ฆ . ๐Ÿ‘ธ๐Ÿฟ๐ŸŒ†Breakfast ~ Gold syrup oats ๐Ÿ‘ธ๐Ÿฟ๐ŸŒ†Lunch~ Quinoa pot with peppers, yoghurt drink and toffee and popcorn chocolate bar (At work) ๐Ÿ‘ธ๐Ÿฟ๐ŸŒ†Dinner~ Fries ๐Ÿ‘ธ๐Ÿฟ๐ŸŒ†Snacks~ Two fruit scones ๐Ÿ‘ธ๐Ÿฟ๐ŸŒ†Dessert~ Popcorn and some crisps . ๐Ÿ‘ฃ๐ŸŽงI've been bopping around the house in happy spirits. I just want everyone to get along and celebrate with each other ๐Ÿ† ๐ŸŽจIf Y'all can wrap up 'world peace' that's what I want for my birthday ๐Ÿ˜‚ No more lying, hating, e.t.c ๐Ÿ’ฅโ„๏ธ I'm filling my sea with love and beautiful things ๐ŸŒŠ It's good for my mental health ๐ŸŒ›๐ŸŒ™ ๐ŸŽ ๐ŸŒŽ Ooh and a purple Afro ๐Ÿ”ฅ๐Ÿ’œ . Ed Sheeran ~ Shape of your body Jax Jones~ Don't know me ๐ŸŽถ ๐Ÿ’ƒ๐Ÿฟ . ๐Ÿฐ๐ŸŽ‚So happy hope you're too. I'm really proud of my intake today. If you're not please no hate ๐Ÿ“๐Ÿ” I tried my best. Take care~ Much love Jelly xxx ๐Ÿ“–๐Ÿ—๐Ÿ”ฎ
Snacky lunch from earlier. A pita topped with Snickerdoodle hummus (the most amazing thing ever)  and cinnamon + a coffee chocolate @rxbar + raspberry white chocolate @powerbar + 2 clementines. Also, go check out my personal @juliaa_klein to see my post about NEDA Week! Tags - - - - - - - -  #muscle #gains #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery  #recoverywin #realrecovery #selflove #selfcare #eatittobeatit #nourishnotpunish #swole #lift #protein #training #train #weightrestored #weightmaintenance #fit #fitness #fitnessmotivation #fitfam #edfam #eatingdisorderrecovery #girlswholift #fitgirls  #lifting #fearfoodchallenge #intuitiveeating #proteinbar #hummus
Snacky lunch from earlier. A pita topped with Snickerdoodle hummus (the most amazing thing ever) and cinnamon + a coffee chocolate @rxbar + raspberry white chocolate @powerbar + 2 clementines. Also, go check out my personal @juliaa_klein to see my post about NEDA Week! Tags - - - - - - - - #muscle  #gains  #anorexiarecovery  #edrecovery  #recoverywin  #realrecovery  #selflove  #selfcare  #eatittobeatit  #nourishnotpunish  #swole  #lift  #protein  #training  #train  #weightrestored  #weightmaintenance  #fit  #fitness  #fitnessmotivation  #fitfam  #edfam  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #girlswholift  #fitgirls  #lifting  #fearfoodchallenge  #intuitiveeating  #proteinbar  #hummus 
Totally unknown calorie and cooked by mum's boyfriend! Unknown amounts of oil, he put roast potatoes in there. Multiple tins of tomatoes and it's so nice to just eat something cooked by someone else. I had olive cravings fgs. And I'm Who needs to know calories? Nope not meeee  #edfamily #edrecovery #strongnotskinny #anorexiarecovery #anarecovery #anorexia #fuckED #edfam #edfamily #edcommunity #fightana #nourishtoflourish #prorecovery #balancednotclean #strongnotskinny #eatittobeatit #nourishnotpunish #togetherwecan #recovery2016 #edfighter #anawho #healthynotskinny #beatED #beatana #bethebiggerbully #kickassrecovery
Totally unknown calorie and cooked by mum's boyfriend! Unknown amounts of oil, he put roast potatoes in there. Multiple tins of tomatoes and it's so nice to just eat something cooked by someone else. I had olive cravings fgs. And I'm Who needs to know calories? Nope not meeee #edfamily  #edrecovery  #strongnotskinny  #anorexiarecovery  #anarecovery  #anorexia  #fuckED  #edfam  #edfamily  #edcommunity  #fightana  #nourishtoflourish  #prorecovery  #balancednotclean  #strongnotskinny  #eatittobeatit  #nourishnotpunish  #togetherwecan  #recovery2016  #edfighter  #anawho  #healthynotskinny  #beatED  #beatana  #bethebiggerbully  #kickassrecovery 
Night snack tonight is chocolate buttons and a chocolate frijj๐Ÿซ Can't believe I used to be scared of chocolate lmao, look at me now๐Ÿ˜‚ I've gotten quite triggered this evening because some people have been telling me things that are going on in my old inpatient unit and it's just hard to hear about people being on eyesight and having incidents, it just brings back bad memoriesโ˜น๏ธ
Night snack tonight is chocolate buttons and a chocolate frijj๐Ÿซ Can't believe I used to be scared of chocolate lmao, look at me now๐Ÿ˜‚ I've gotten quite triggered this evening because some people have been telling me things that are going on in my old inpatient unit and it's just hard to hear about people being on eyesight and having incidents, it just brings back bad memoriesโ˜น๏ธ
Really proud of myself for going to church today ๐Ÿ’ชFor someone with social anxiety even something as simple as that can become a huge fear. I have a hard time going alone to gatherings and I had no idea if anyone I knew would be there today, but I knew that staying home was not what God wanted from me ๐Ÿ’ช and hey look I didn't die! I'm still here and am now filled with a great message to reflect on for the week ๐Ÿ˜Š conquering anxiety is like working a muscle or playing a sport; the less active you are at it the less improvements you are going to see. . I know this to be true but that doesn't mean I always act on it #guiltyascharged ๐Ÿ™‹ but step by step I plan to get more and more removed from my anxiety and embrace the uncomfortable ๐Ÿ™Œ besides, nothing new or exciting ever came from staying in your comfort zone #projectcomeoutofturtleshell๐Ÿข ๐Ÿ˜†. . Shown above is @eatbanza pesto pasta salad bowl for lunch on today's rest day ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿ๐Ÿฅ— #carbsonarestday #duh
Really proud of myself for going to church today ๐Ÿ’ชFor someone with social anxiety even something as simple as that can become a huge fear. I have a hard time going alone to gatherings and I had no idea if anyone I knew would be there today, but I knew that staying home was not what God wanted from me ๐Ÿ’ช and hey look I didn't die! I'm still here and am now filled with a great message to reflect on for the week ๐Ÿ˜Š conquering anxiety is like working a muscle or playing a sport; the less active you are at it the less improvements you are going to see. . I know this to be true but that doesn't mean I always act on it #guiltyascharged  ๐Ÿ™‹ but step by step I plan to get more and more removed from my anxiety and embrace the uncomfortable ๐Ÿ™Œ besides, nothing new or exciting ever came from staying in your comfort zone #projectcomeoutofturtleshell ๐Ÿข ๐Ÿ˜†. . Shown above is @eatbanza pesto pasta salad bowl for lunch on today's rest day ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿ๐Ÿฅ— #carbsonarestday  #duh 
part of breakfast (+ soy milk & 1/3 cup of almonds) mom's taking over my meals for the next lil bit so i don't slip into a lapse after seeing my weight yesterday.. it's for the best i guess ๐Ÿ˜”
part of breakfast (+ soy milk & 1/3 cup of almonds) mom's taking over my meals for the next lil bit so i don't slip into a lapse after seeing my weight yesterday.. it's for the best i guess ๐Ÿ˜”
Snacking on a daiya peach yogurt with half banana sliced, blueberries, trail mix, and some Maca powder sprinkled on top. My mood has been decreasing through out the day because I know school starts again tomorrow and I do not want to go back at all!!
Snacking on a daiya peach yogurt with half banana sliced, blueberries, trail mix, and some Maca powder sprinkled on top. My mood has been decreasing through out the day because I know school starts again tomorrow and I do not want to go back at all!!
To all of us starting new beginnings today ; we've got this ๐Ÿ™ƒ #freakingout #anxiety #newbeginnings #recoveringaussies
Oeh zo lekker gegeten! Curry met gepaneerde zoete aardappel, aubergine en pompoen met rijst en salade ๐Ÿ‘Œโ™ก Gezellig dagje gehad met mijn mams. Morgen even op sportscholen jacht haha ๐Ÿ’ช Dus als iemand tips heeft (woon in Amsterdam Zuid), dan zijn ze welkom! & verder gewoon even lekker wennen aan mijn nieuwe thuis โ™ก  #anorexiarecovery #recoveringdutchie #anorexia #recovery #eatittobeatit #dinner #curry #foodporn #healthyfood #health #fitchick #fitgirl #fitdutchies #fitness #strongnotskinny #gym #moving #newhome #amsterdam #adventure #letsdoit
Oeh zo lekker gegeten! Curry met gepaneerde zoete aardappel, aubergine en pompoen met rijst en salade ๐Ÿ‘Œโ™ก Gezellig dagje gehad met mijn mams. Morgen even op sportscholen jacht haha ๐Ÿ’ช Dus als iemand tips heeft (woon in Amsterdam Zuid), dan zijn ze welkom! & verder gewoon even lekker wennen aan mijn nieuwe thuis โ™ก #anorexiarecovery  #recoveringdutchie  #anorexia  #recovery  #eatittobeatit  #dinner  #curry  #foodporn  #healthyfood  #health  #fitchick  #fitgirl  #fitdutchies  #fitness  #strongnotskinny  #gym  #moving  #newhome  #amsterdam  #adventure  #letsdoit 
๐ŸŒผ Inhale the future Forget the past. Forget your mistakes and forgive yourself for them: you are a human being not a machine. Making mistakes is normal but going on is normal too. Go on and never give up. The past won't return, the future will come. Live your present.
๐ŸŒผ Inhale the future Forget the past. Forget your mistakes and forgive yourself for them: you are a human being not a machine. Making mistakes is normal but going on is normal too. Go on and never give up. The past won't return, the future will come. Live your present.
crumpets with peanut butter and jam for tea๐Ÿฅœ๐Ÿ“(these are the ultimate m&s crumpets..which are my favourite crumps by far!) today has been a lil rough..I've felt really rubbish all day and just wanted to curl up and sleep today away๐Ÿ˜ฉ but I picked myself up and went to my nans with my family and managed a roast dinner even tho I wasn't really felling it!! tho just had a nice bath and I'm all cosied up in my pyjamas so going to eat this then head up too bed with netflix๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿป
crumpets with peanut butter and jam for tea๐Ÿฅœ๐Ÿ“(these are the ultimate m&s crumpets..which are my favourite crumps by far!) today has been a lil rough..I've felt really rubbish all day and just wanted to curl up and sleep today away๐Ÿ˜ฉ but I picked myself up and went to my nans with my family and managed a roast dinner even tho I wasn't really felling it!! tho just had a nice bath and I'm all cosied up in my pyjamas so going to eat this then head up too bed with netflix๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿป
Dinner was cod ( pre drowned in sweet chilli sauce ๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜‰), sweet tato and all da veg ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป followed by a fage yoghurt for those #calciumgains ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿป๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿป #boobsnotbones #strongnotskinny #nourishtoflourish #nourishnotpunish #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatittobeatit #edfam #edfree #edfamily #edwarrior #edrecovery
I'm afraid to say this is long long overdue but PROPER PUD ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿฝ๐ŸŽ‰๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿฝ๐ŸŽ‰๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿฝ the incredible @logicmyhero sent me this Waitrose sticky toffee apple pud (topped with butter caramel sauce and candied apple๐Ÿ˜) as my Christmas challenge.. it got put off and put off but the day came today, to top off a fantastically ED-free weekend on a high, and wow this was soooo delicious ๐Ÿ˜ baby steps are fine and it doesn't matter how you get there but keep your eye on the goal and just make sure you get there... you are worth it, you deserve it, you are allowed โค๏ธ๏ธโค๏ธ๏ธโค๏ธ๏ธ #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #edrecovery #ed #edfamily #edcommunity #eatittobeatit #strongnotskinny #balancednotclean #healthynotskinny #prorecovery #recovery #recoverywarrior #ana #anarecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #beatingana #beatanorexia #fuckana #recoverywin #fearfood #boobsnotbones #intuitiveeating
I'm afraid to say this is long long overdue but PROPER PUD ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿฝ๐ŸŽ‰๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿฝ๐ŸŽ‰๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿฝ the incredible @logicmyhero sent me this Waitrose sticky toffee apple pud (topped with butter caramel sauce and candied apple๐Ÿ˜) as my Christmas challenge.. it got put off and put off but the day came today, to top off a fantastically ED-free weekend on a high, and wow this was soooo delicious ๐Ÿ˜ baby steps are fine and it doesn't matter how you get there but keep your eye on the goal and just make sure you get there... you are worth it, you deserve it, you are allowed โค๏ธ๏ธโค๏ธ๏ธโค๏ธ๏ธ #anorexiarecovery  #anorexia  #edrecovery  #ed  #edfamily  #edcommunity  #eatittobeatit  #strongnotskinny  #balancednotclean  #healthynotskinny  #prorecovery  #recovery  #recoverywarrior  #ana  #anarecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #beatingana  #beatanorexia  #fuckana  #recoverywin  #fearfood  #boobsnotbones  #intuitiveeating 
I had a good break, now back to studying all day ๐Ÿ˜ณ
I had a good break, now back to studying all day ๐Ÿ˜ณ
Breakfast up graded to 4 weetbix ๐Ÿ˜‚ and a lot more milk and raspberry jam๐Ÿ˜ฑ!!! ((Oh and a new lemon+ginger tea as they're currently out of green tea!) Basically got busted taking and editing this photo. Told the guy I was on fb but he wasn't really falling for it so now I feel embarrassed af and hella awkward around him ๐Ÿ˜ฉ. Good chats around breakfast this morning though (while everyone slyly looks at your breakfast load ๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜ฏ)... 8am mornings is basically guy central 101 ahh ๐Ÿ˜‚. Going to get ready for my day and find a new morning walk loop for my new home here ๐Ÿ˜‰. First uni lecture today, starting at 2pm!! ๐Ÿ˜ฑ
Breakfast up graded to 4 weetbix ๐Ÿ˜‚ and a lot more milk and raspberry jam๐Ÿ˜ฑ!!! ((Oh and a new lemon+ginger tea as they're currently out of green tea!) Basically got busted taking and editing this photo. Told the guy I was on fb but he wasn't really falling for it so now I feel embarrassed af and hella awkward around him ๐Ÿ˜ฉ. Good chats around breakfast this morning though (while everyone slyly looks at your breakfast load ๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜ฏ)... 8am mornings is basically guy central 101 ahh ๐Ÿ˜‚. Going to get ready for my day and find a new morning walk loop for my new home here ๐Ÿ˜‰. First uni lecture today, starting at 2pm!! ๐Ÿ˜ฑ
In the noon it was home made hamburger ๐Ÿ”๐ŸŸ, I tried to take advantage at the most and to take some pleasure in spite of a big guilt... Ce midi c'รฉtait hamburger maison๐Ÿ”๐ŸŸ, j'ai essayรฉ de profiter au maximum et de prendre du plaisir malgrรฉ une grande culpabilitรฉ... #hamburger #not #healthy #junkfood #fearfood #recovery #recovering #recoverywin #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #realrecovery #recoveryispossible #fuckana #fuckanorexia # #anorexia #anawarrior #anafighter #edfighter #nourishnotpunish #nourishtoflourish #prorecovery #eatittobeatit
In the noon it was home made hamburger ๐Ÿ”๐ŸŸ, I tried to take advantage at the most and to take some pleasure in spite of a big guilt... Ce midi c'รฉtait hamburger maison๐Ÿ”๐ŸŸ, j'ai essayรฉ de profiter au maximum et de prendre du plaisir malgrรฉ une grande culpabilitรฉ... #hamburger  #not  #healthy  #junkfood  #fearfood  #recovery  #recovering  #recoverywin  #edrecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexianervosa  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #realrecovery  #recoveryispossible  #fuckana  #fuckanorexia  # #anorexia  #anawarrior  #anafighter  #edfighter  #nourishnotpunish  #nourishtoflourish  #prorecovery  #eatittobeatit 
Lunch!! I'm getting better and better at cooking ๐Ÿฝ - - - Been having such a hectic day. Delilah has no chill so I've had to cancel my afternoon plans to spend the day with her๐Ÿ‘ป๐Ÿถ Hopefully I can still make it to my yoga class at 630 tonight. โ˜ฏ - - - I've been keeping my circle small lately, only giving my attention to the people who mean most to me. I've tried on a few occasions to make plans with some girls from my school but they've fallen through both times. I wish I could connect to girls my age, to people that haven't been in the hospital and that have had decently normal lives. I wish there wasn't that fear on both ends.. I'm an easy person to talk to i just sometimes struggle with certain things. I wish I could connect to people easier, or for reasons beyond being sick.
Lunch!! I'm getting better and better at cooking ๐Ÿฝ - - - Been having such a hectic day. Delilah has no chill so I've had to cancel my afternoon plans to spend the day with her๐Ÿ‘ป๐Ÿถ Hopefully I can still make it to my yoga class at 630 tonight. โ˜ฏ - - - I've been keeping my circle small lately, only giving my attention to the people who mean most to me. I've tried on a few occasions to make plans with some girls from my school but they've fallen through both times. I wish I could connect to girls my age, to people that haven't been in the hospital and that have had decently normal lives. I wish there wasn't that fear on both ends.. I'm an easy person to talk to i just sometimes struggle with certain things. I wish I could connect to people easier, or for reasons beyond being sick.
โ€ข hey guys, enjoy this amazingly unedited candle photo I took yesterday haha โ€ข wasn't able to get a picture of dinner tonight but I guess that's a good thing because there was so much I wouldn't want anyone seeing what a hog I am ๐Ÿ˜ช โ€ข my dad would. not. stop. piling basted (cooked in dripping fat) chicken onto my plate it was ridiculous and I felt sick just looking at it and he saw my face and started smirking ๐Ÿ˜” โ€ข then my mum gave me the biggest 4 honey roasted potatoes that were in the pan and heaps of vegetables, they always give me too much for Sunday roasts but this time there was EVEN more, I had the same amount as both of them and I've never had that much for Sunday roast in my life ๐Ÿ˜ž โ€ข to make it worse neither of them finished theirs and my mum left the biggest potato she had out of the 3 she gave herself, but I wouldn't dare leave anything on my plate, I've been expected to eat every single crumb of food at every meal for the last year now and if I so much as gave the impression I wasn't going eat everything I'd be screamed and shouted at ๐Ÿ˜“ โ€ข feel so disgusting and vile โ€ข #failure #recovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #edfam #edwarrior #edfighter #eatittobeatit #beatana #fuckana #togetherwecan #strongertogether #2fab4ana #depression #anxiety #dinner #anawho #eatingdisorder #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #letsdothis #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentalhealthawareness #keepfighting #food
โ€ข hey guys, enjoy this amazingly unedited candle photo I took yesterday haha โ€ข wasn't able to get a picture of dinner tonight but I guess that's a good thing because there was so much I wouldn't want anyone seeing what a hog I am ๐Ÿ˜ช โ€ข my dad would. not. stop. piling basted (cooked in dripping fat) chicken onto my plate it was ridiculous and I felt sick just looking at it and he saw my face and started smirking ๐Ÿ˜” โ€ข then my mum gave me the biggest 4 honey roasted potatoes that were in the pan and heaps of vegetables, they always give me too much for Sunday roasts but this time there was EVEN more, I had the same amount as both of them and I've never had that much for Sunday roast in my life ๐Ÿ˜ž โ€ข to make it worse neither of them finished theirs and my mum left the biggest potato she had out of the 3 she gave herself, but I wouldn't dare leave anything on my plate, I've been expected to eat every single crumb of food at every meal for the last year now and if I so much as gave the impression I wasn't going eat everything I'd be screamed and shouted at ๐Ÿ˜“ โ€ข feel so disgusting and vile โ€ข #failure  #recovery  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #edfam  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #eatittobeatit  #beatana  #fuckana  #togetherwecan  #strongertogether  #2fab4ana  #depression  #anxiety  #dinner  #anawho  #eatingdisorder  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #letsdothis  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #mentalhealthawareness  #keepfighting  #food 
. Night snack: skyr cottage cheese with grapes๐Ÿ‡๐Ÿ‡ . Im so insane exhausted and tired so having night snack is really a fight today. Just wanna go to sleep. I'm full, feeling sick and just wanna sleep, but no. Nightsnack is good so I'm gonna jump into this bowl now ๐Ÿต
. Night snack: skyr cottage cheese with grapes๐Ÿ‡๐Ÿ‡ . Im so insane exhausted and tired so having night snack is really a fight today. Just wanna go to sleep. I'm full, feeling sick and just wanna sleep, but no. Nightsnack is good so I'm gonna jump into this bowl now ๐Ÿต
HUGE FEAR(!!) Had a naan along with my Tarka Dahl, Mexican rice and veggies. An 'unnecessary' extra.. My ass! Absolutely delish and #carbsarenottheenemy ๐Ÿ˜‡ #flourish #nourish #eatittobeatit #edwarrior #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #ana #anarecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #ed #edrecovery #prorecovery #calories #foodporn #food #curry ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ’Ÿ
First AS // PB cookie sandwich. Look at that melty pb. Look at that pillowy cookie. Look at how many shits I give what Ana says. Oh wait-- you can't see those! They don't exist! - - - #realrecovery #edfighter #prorecovery #healing #progressnotperfection #progress #recovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anarecovery #anafighter #anawarrior #edrecovery #edfighter #edwarrior #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrevovery #health #healthy #healthyfood #healthyeating #strongnotskinny #healthynotskinny #anawho #eattorun #prorecovery #eatittobeatit
First AS // PB cookie sandwich. Look at that melty pb. Look at that pillowy cookie. Look at how many shits I give what Ana says. Oh wait-- you can't see those! They don't exist! - - - #realrecovery  #edfighter  #prorecovery  #healing  #progressnotperfection  #progress  #recovery  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anarecovery  #anafighter  #anawarrior  #edrecovery  #edfighter  #edwarrior  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrevovery  #health  #healthy  #healthyfood  #healthyeating  #strongnotskinny  #healthynotskinny  #anawho  #eattorun  #prorecovery  #eatittobeatit 
Breakfast after church! Brown rice cereal topped with a banana, Greek yogurt, and cinnamon ๐ŸŒ โ€ข โ€ข โ€ข โ€ข #edrecovery #ednosrecovery #anorexiarecovery #bedrecovery #prorecovery #realrecovery #eatittobeatit #2fab4ana #beated
#Nightsnack is a sultana scone with clotted cream and raspberry jam ๐Ÿ“I can't remember the last time I had one of these! Unknown calories = major #recoverywin ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿผ I've had such a fab weekend with my friends and family, and enjoyed myself eating at different places. #Recovery is SO worth it. And I'm determined to push myself even more next week! Hope everyone has a lovely evening ๐Ÿ’™ #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #prorecovery #mealpan #dietetics #strongnotskinny #balancednotclean #goals #anxiety #fighting #ednos #edwarrior #edfam #challenge #edsoldier #eatittobeatit #eatingdisorder
#Nightsnack  is a sultana scone with clotted cream and raspberry jam ๐Ÿ“I can't remember the last time I had one of these! Unknown calories = major #recoverywin  ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿผ I've had such a fab weekend with my friends and family, and enjoyed myself eating at different places. #Recovery  is SO worth it. And I'm determined to push myself even more next week! Hope everyone has a lovely evening ๐Ÿ’™ #edrecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexia  #prorecovery  #mealpan  #dietetics  #strongnotskinny  #balancednotclean  #goals  #anxiety  #fighting  #ednos  #edwarrior  #edfam  #challenge  #edsoldier  #eatittobeatit  #eatingdisorder 
Guys this smoothie is the bomb.  So good and refreshing,  so many berries and banana๐ŸŒ๐Ÿ“๐Ÿ’๐Ÿmy morning had a rough start so I've been taking it slow and not doing too much so I don't get myself all worked upbecause I have this family dinner tonight which already has me rattled and on edge.  However,  I'm powering through and trying to just make things work. - - - #Ana #anarecovery #ed #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #prorecovery #realrecovery #edfam #edsoldier #nourishnotpunish #eatittobeatit #eattolive #smallsteps #onebiteatatime
Guys this smoothie is the bomb. So good and refreshing, so many berries and banana๐ŸŒ๐Ÿ“๐Ÿ’๐Ÿmy morning had a rough start so I've been taking it slow and not doing too much so I don't get myself all worked upbecause I have this family dinner tonight which already has me rattled and on edge. However, I'm powering through and trying to just make things work. - - - #Ana  #anarecovery  #ed  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #prorecovery  #realrecovery  #edfam  #edsoldier  #nourishnotpunish  #eatittobeatit  #eattolive  #smallsteps  #onebiteatatime